The question is very difficult for me. We have been married for 7 years, of which 5 we are parents. And when I first realized that I no longer want to live the way my husband and I do, it scared me. I gave up these thoughts, and tried to distract myself, but it doesn't work out. In fact, all I've been thinking lately is how to fill out the California divorce forms as soon as possible and get rid of this marriage. Don't think, my husband never offended me, on the contrary, he always supported any of my ideas. BUT. I don't love him, and this is really important to me. We only got married because I got pregnant. Then I sat with the children for a long time while he worked. I felt so alone that it’s hard to put into words. Apparently, at that moment something in me switched, I tried to distract myself with different thoughts and activities, but it didn't work out.